“What is this called, what I am doing, to myself, to my life, this wallowing, this pondering, this rolling over and over in the same places of my memory, wearing them thin, wearing them out? Why don’t I ever learn? Why don’t I ever do anything different?”—Charles Yu (via selfinspiration)
“It’s being here now that’s important. There’s no past and there’s no future. Time is a very misleading thing. All there is ever, is the now. We can gain experience from the past, but we can’t relive it; and we can hope for the future, but we don’t know if there is one.”—George Harrison (via selfinspiration)
It’s strange how simultaneously happy and crushed one can be. How all of these ecstatic emotions can share the same space with so much darkness and uncertainty. M got into Valpo, which means he can, after two years, finally finish his B.A., as he deserves. This means, however, that I’ll be heading to Charleston alone in August. How do I leave the one person who holds my heart and trust that he keeps it safe at such a distance?
“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited.”—Sylvia Plath (via selfinspiration)
“The people who get angriest about fat girls looking good and feeling hot are the people who are the most strongly invested in the idea that a person has to be skinny in order to be happy, healthy, and loved.”—Lesley Kinzel, CNN.com (via fatandtheivy)
“There is nothing to do. Just be. Do nothing. Be. No climbing mountains and sitting in caves. I do not even say: ‘be yourself’, since you do not know yourself. Just be. Having seen that you are neither the ‘outer’ world of perceivables, not the ‘inner’ world of thinkables, that you are neither body nor mind, just be.”—Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj (via lazyyogi)
I always forget just how re-energized I feel after seeing one of my life-long friends. I’m an introvert through and through, and thus tend to feel exhausted and drained after social contact of any kind. However, not today—not when I’m with people I have known for more than a decade.
I really wish running away from (or in this case, hiding out from) what my life currently is in MN and re-creating those elements here in IL was a viable option. I’d stay in a heartbeat.
Got to keep on keepin’ on, however. Nose to the grindstone. Someday, I’ll call this town home again. Sweet home.
“You get a strange feeling when you’re about to leave a place. Like you’ll not only miss the people you love but you’ll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you’ll never be this way ever again.”—Azar Nafisi (via selfinspiration)